i'm totally lost, this isn't me at all.
i miss the one i used to be, carefree.
i miss my home, family, friends & everything,
why must i always ended up like that?
did i ever owe anyone their time in the past life?
ever since 2010 starts with the stupid project,
i haven't been like this before,
rebel like a kid that doesn't goes to skl?
No way! this is not what i want. but i just can't help it.
everytime u need my accompany, i just agree to u is becoz i
know sooner or later we might not meet up often.
can i bare to say no? no.. it's impossible.
what happen whenever i voiced out my feelings? history will repeat.
another quarrel coming up? fight? worse, threaten suicide again?
i'm like stuck in between the one u wants me to be & the real me.
in front of u, i forbid myself to do things i like.
forbid my feelings, thoughts, emotionals & tears.
what else do i left with? corpse without all those things above?
fine fine whatever i say is just a say,
nothing can change, i just hate the one i am now.
THIS ISN'T MYSELF.
